I am having a great happy day!!
I've had a series of good and bad feelings/things happen to me within a 1 1/2 week span. The big picture: My husband has gone to Barbados for a month to visit his family. I, to tell you the truth, was having mixed feelings about the separation; but, believe me when I tell you, I was ready for the separation. Well, low and behold, we couldn't connect for the first few days he was gone, because he'd call when I am just getting in, the house is a mess, my head space was just not right. I didn't want to speak to him. Then we'd speak and argue. One day, on my way to work, I was listening to gospel music and was feeling God's presence. To make a long story shorter, let me tell you, I have never had a great feeling come over me before. I felt great that day. The next morning, I had another argument with my husband, went to work, listening to my gospel music, and then...my car started feeling funny. I started praying because I know, I am not going to know what to do. I did make it to the gas station, where I eventually broke down. I cried in front of strangers and my boss. I was in a place where I didn't want to be. As people have now seen me at a low point whereas people are used to seeing me at a higher point. I made it through that day. I am now driving my husbands truck till he comes home to fix my van (yes, I drive a van not a car). So, a few days later, I am on my way to work, listening to HE WANTS IT ALL TODAY over and over; and realizing I have time to go and buy breakfast and I heard something say fast. I am like what, fast, naw, you must be kidding me. But then I said, I wonder if this is God talking to me and he wants to do something to me. I am no church goer but I was brought up in church and have heard somethings. I just thank God I was at a point that I could recognize what was going on, how many things have I missed because I didn't listen. Anyway, I was like dang, I can't not eat all day, but I am up for a challenge. I sought out guidance from some of my church going friends on how I can do this thing and inquired how long should I do it. Well, one of those great friends said, "Fast 3 days from 6am - 6pm" I was like, I can do that.
Today is my day 3.
Before day 1: It was the evening when I was on FB and a friend posted the fact that they were listening to He wants it all for the 5th time. I was like what is that, let me find it. He didn't post the link so I listened and posted the link for others to easily find it.
Day 1: While listening to the above mentioned song, I was told to fast. During this day, I received confirmation.
Day 2: I met like-minded people that I have been seeking for so long. You know how you are needing to surround yourself with like-minded people so that you can grow. I got that. As I write this, the tears are pouring. I have asked God for years for help, cursed him for giving me this gift. The gift I have is to empower women and the reason that I can't do it myself is that it is a whole package. It is hard to explain right now, but I recognized that my gift is just a part of something bigger. Last night, I met 2 not 1, but 2 women that are so much like me. It was a surreal situation. My prayers were answered.
Day 3: I am on the last day of my fast and have been compelled to share this story with you.